Midnight Luna
Chapter Eighteen

Hailey’s POV

Something was wrong. No everything was wrong. I had just started to believe my life would be filled with happiness for eternity. I had started to know and understand what actual happiness meant. I had just got to know what a second chance feels like. I was on my way to mend all the cracks in my heart. I had finally felt wanted for the first time in my life. But now I had just lost all that. Every hope of mine was built on this life I had made for myself here. But that was gone, it was shattered, it was wrecked.

But it’s my fault, I should have known better. I should have known my past will someday come back to haunt me. The horrible life I had left behind will soon catch up with me. It was inevitable and I knew it. I did, deep down I knew I had to be ready. But I was so naïve, this short lived happiness consumed me and I let down my guard. But I let it down just for a little time and see how cruel the fates are. That very time they thought it was the precise moment to let the one thing I never wanted to see or feel to catch up to me. It was my stupid fault and the consequence is my punishment.

But how would I mend these old wounds that had torn open in my heart. It took so long fot them to heel, now I would never be able to do it all over again. I was indeed a damaged good, how naïve of me to think otherwise. I felt weak, vulnerable; as if my heart was left on display for everyone to poke, taunt and pierce.

“Hailey please say something. Please baby you’re scaring me.” Liam’s voice entered my head and brought me back to reality. Blinking fast I cleared my vision and looked at him. His brows were knitted together in a frown. His eyes held unshed tears of desperation and sadness. Letting my eyes wonder around his office I saw Nate, Kevin, Ethan and Tyler crouched near me with concern drawn on their handsome faces. I couldn’t smile even if I wanted to assure them its ok. But how could I, when I knew none of this was ok. Locking eyes with each of them I turned to Liam.

“What should I say? What should I do?” My tears fell from my eyes leaving my vision blurred. A soft hand gentle wiped them away. I stared at Liam and saw a lone tear escape his eyes too. He drew me closed and kissed me forehead and held his lips there for a second longer. A sob left my mouth as my heart ached seeing him like this.

“I promise Hailey I’ll make this go. I will do anything just tell me.” He held me to his chest and I buried my face in his chest. He held me tightly; as if thinking if he left me, I’d just disappear. I pulled back and kissed him straight on the lips, giving him whatever assurance I could, telling him that I was still her and was ok. I never wanted to worry him with my mess. As we broke apart, Kevin got up and clenched his hands tight.

“You don’t need to go to this meeting. You don’t have to face him. We can send Tyler as Pack Warrior.” He said as all the rest nodded.

“No.” I answered in a weak voice. “No Hailey please I’d lose you then.” Liam whispered only for my ears. I looked at him and knew that he knew what I was thinking. He let his head fall as if letting me know he supported me.

“Hails, baby if this is hard then you don’t need to do this.” Ethan said. I shook my head and withdrew myself from Liam. He reluctantly let me go. I walked to the window and glanced at the night sky. It was black as coal with not a single star adorning it. It was blank and filled with darkness and emptiness. It looked just like my life, dark and empty.

“No I need to do this. Whatever it is I need to face it. If this is something the fates have served on my plate then I will try it no matter how bitter and sour it tastes. I will face it because maybe this is meant to be. Maybe I was never meant to be in the blue sky pack. I think I have over stayed my welcome. It’s time I stop running and turn back and confront my past. Or else it will forever haunt me. I need to go back. What the outcome will be I have no idea, but I have to take this as an opportunity. My fate is already so messed up, what’s this any different.” I joked as I laughed sadly.

“And no matter how it goes I hope I find a way back to you guys.” I paused and turned to face them letting what I said sink in. My cheeks wet as my eyes continued to let tears fall.

“No.” Tyler yelled. “No I won’t let them take you away. I know that you’re meant to be here, with us. Change your destiny Hailey; you can if you just try.” He walked to me and took my hand in his. I saw unshed tears build in his eyes.

“Yes Hails. This is your home. We couldn’t bare the thought of being without you. You can’t leave us. Please Hails don’t do this. We’ll fight anyone who tries to take you away from us.” Kevin said in determination.

“Liam, why don’t you put some sense in her? You can’t let her walk away from you.” Ethan looked desperately at him. Liam just looked back at him and then got up facing all of them. He looked at me and I smiled slightly, knowing he understood me, he then turned to Nate who was standing quietly with a sad look on his handsome face. Nate looked back at Liam and nodded once.

“I’m with Hailey on this.” He said slowly.

“What, you can’t be serious. This is just sick and ridiculous, I won’t have any part in it.” Kevin yelled at Liam.

“Kevin, just listen to me and don’t argue. We pack up today and leave tomorrow as planned at o-eight hundred.” He said using his full alpha power. Grunting Kevin left the room and closed the door behind him loudly.

“We’ll go talk to him, but whatever you’ll decide we’ll side with you no matter how much we despise it.” Ethan mumbled and left with Tyler hot on his heels. Nate came towards me and pecked me on my cheek. “Choose wisely little girl.” And he left with a nod to Liam. As he closed the door softly behind him, the room filled with silence. I didn’t want to turn to Liam and see his sad face. I was scared of what he would say to me regarding my decision.

“Look at me Hailey.” He said from behind me. I shook my head not able to move. I could feel his breath on my neck. “Please baby” He pleaded. Closing my eyes, I slowly turned to him. He held my shoulders gently and rested his forehead on mine. “Open your eyes.”

I slowly opened them and meet deep sad brown eyes. He held my gaze for a minute and I didn’t have the strength to break it. I wanted to tell him so many things. Explain myself but words failed me.

“Liam, I’m sor-” I began.

“I know baby, I know. You don’t have to explain.” He whispered. He smashed his lips on mine painfully. This kiss was none like any before. This was raw and filled with regret, sadness, grief and loss. I kissed him back with all my heart. He plunged his tongue and as it touched mine my mouth burned with every stroke. His bit my lip, causing me to gasp in pain and pleasure. He kissed me as if it was our last goodbye. But I knew that I would never let my goodbye come so fast. I don’t think my heart is ready to let him go yet. I put this thought in my kiss letting him know what I felt.

We pulled back to catch our breath. His lips were red and swollen and I knew mine looked the same. His hand rested on my cheek as he stroked it with his thumb. “Hailey, will you,” He paused looking at me. I smiled at him and waited for him to continue. “Will you ever change your mind?” He voice broke and that broke my heart further. My smile slowly left my face. I wanted to tell him something to return that smile of his, But I knew if I lied to him it won’t change the fact.

“Liam, he is my mate. We’re destined to be together.” I whispered. His jaws suddenly harden and his eyes filled with anger. “The hell he is. He never loved you, I did. Why do you have to go to him when all he did was hurt you? He doesn’t deserve you. I do.” He yelled. “Choose me Hailey. Please I beg you to choose me.” He said as he lowered his voice to just a whisper. He sat back on the couch dejected.

I really wanted to change time. How I wished I wasn’t the wolf in the prophesy. Then none of this would have happen. I wouldn’t have to meet with my former pack to tell them about Logan. I wouldn’t be the reason for the danger I put all of them in. But wishing is never going to change my cold reality.

“I would Liam, trust me I would if I could.” He looked at me as if what I said didn’t make sense. I sat by him and held his hand. “A mate is someone who has been chosen for you by the gods themselves. That is forever. What you and I have Liam isn’t. It may feel real and heck it even feels right but this makes it all the more wrong. Mates are drawn to each other from a great distance. I know how hard it is to leave ones mate, but his anger and hate made it a tad bit easier. But I know for a fact no matter how much he hates me, how much he despises me, I will forever be his mate and that is my candle in this darkness.” Liam squeezed my hand and shook his head.

“But he doesn’t want you. I know I sound horrible but it’s the harsh truth. You know he mated with someone else why go through with this?” He pleaded with me. I smiled and held his face in my hands. “I’m doing this mostly for me because I’m selfish.” He frowned at me, “what does that mean?” He sounded hurt.

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“You know how mates are to each other. What if you meet your mate, Liam? Then what happens to me. I don’t think I’ll be able to watch you walk away. And don’t deny it cause we both know when the time comes I won’t be your choice. So I’m doing my heart a favor to let it give my mate a chance so it won’t hurt when you leave.”

He didn’t answer me and I knew he never could because what I said was right. He must have known that even his mate would come. Sooner if not later but she would. Then what about me? Yes I was selfish, very selfish. I didn’t think I’d survive if I had to watch him walk away from me, leaving me alone. So this was me trying to give my heart options to mend.

“Hey Liam.” I called him. He turned to me and I gave him the brightest smile I could manage. “I’m still here. And I’m not letting you go right away. I love you Liam. I know I do. Maybe not in ways a wolf loves its mate but I love you with all my heart.”

He smiled back at me and wrapped me in his arms. “And I don’t intend to ever let you go until you ask me to. I love you Hailey Johnson with every inch of my heart.”

I laid my head on his shoulder as he rested his on my head and we gazed in silence out the window, in each other’s arms for how long we didn’t know, but I knew we were just savoring every second as if it were our last.

I don’t know what was going to happen from here on, what was there in store for me in my future. A part of me didn’t want to know and a part of me, which included my wolf was impatient to see her mate who no matter how much we tried, we still loved with our soul.

The future was a blur. I had no clue if Zach even loved me back, if he even wanted to see my face. I had no idea if my heart could withstand another rejection. I was blindly walking into oblivion, but it was necessary. This had to happen. And if I won’t get my happily ever after, I’ll just make sure I follow my destiny to save everyone like Luna asked me too and maybe, just maybe I could help Liam get his true love because he deserved the best ever happy ending life could give him.

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