Damian's rose
Chapter 40: 40) Realisation.

Authors pov

It's been two days after Rose's accident. Damian kept working from his office at home as he wanted Rose to take as much rest possible because she didn't let him go anywhere without her. Her hands were in better condition now so she stopped bandaging them and started practicing like everyday.

Ashton entered the kitchen to grab himself a coffee but stopped dead in his track when he saw the person in front him. He pinched himself checking if it's a dream or reality.

Charlie stood their talking with Emily, when she saw Ashton she gave him a small smile and Ashton was still looking at her confused.

Rose came to the kitchen to make coffee for Damian and saw Ashton standing there stunned.

She cleared her throat and greeted Charlie.

"Hii, so you joined ?..."

Charlie smiled at Rose nodding yes..

"Yeah, I got hired yesterday, thank you Rose..."

Rose gave her a small smile and started making coffee and Ashton looked at Rose with a questionable gaze.

Rose stood beside him and whispered...

"Thank me later..."

She smirked looking at Ashton and he understood that it's all her doing.

He turned red when his senior, more of a coach teased him about his crush. He looked at the Charlie and greeted her making her smile go wide. Rose sat beside Damian and everyone started eating their breakfast.

"Ok, all the girls listen to me and boys can fuck themselves..."

Olivia said sarcastically grabbing everyone's attention and making all the men roll their eyes at her.

"As you guys know, I am leaving tomorrow and I want to give all these beautiful ladies a treat, so we are going to the club tonight, be ready by 8..."

She declared in an overdramatic way like a queen in 90s movies making all the girls giggle and men scoff.

"We also want to come, why only girls..."

Joseph butted in...

"Because I don't like cocks..."

She mocked and everyone laughed...

"This is so unfair..."

Jack agreed with Joseph...

"Shut the fuck up boys, girls be ready and Charlie, Maisy you both are coming too..."

She pointed towards them and ordered.

"Specially you Rose..."

Rose looked at her and was about to say no but Damian cut her between.

"She will come..."

He declared and Olivia grinned. Damian wanted Rose to get out of her secluded world. He wanted to see her behave like a normal girl, no doubt he like her the way she is now but he could sense that she is holding herself in and he wanted to set her real self free and maybe going out and hanging with other girls will help her, that's why he took this decision for her.

"Great..."

Lilly jumped excitingly in her place.

****

"I don't want to go..."

Rose said to Damian, they were in his office.

"And why is that?"

He asked typing on his laptop not even bothering to look at her whining face.

"I don't like clubbing and all those things, I would rather spend some time in gym..."

She replied and sat infront of him..

"Yeah that's why I am sending you, you need to go out and enjoy so no arguments."

He eyed her through his glasses and she huffed.

"Just try this once you will like it angel, I just want you to live freely..."

He took of his glasses and tried to convince her.

She nodded in understanding making him smile.

"Good girl..."

He ruffled her hair and she quickly pushed his hand away fixing her hair.

"I am not a good girl..."

She said scrunching her nose and stood up...

"Yeah tell me about it..."

Damian sighed thinking how she was slaughtering men's that day.

"What did you say?"

She asked when she heard him mumbling something.

"Nothing, can you please bring me coffee..."

He said giving her a tight smile.

"Okay"

She nodded and head downstairs towards the kitchen.

She entered in and started making coffee, stella entered in the kitchen at the same time and saw Rose, her heart started beating fast when she saw her. Rose noticed her and as usual totally ignored her. Stella tried to calm herself down and opened the refrigerator to get herself a glass of cold water.

"Hii rose..."

Charlie greeted her placing the fruit basket on the counter.

Rose greeted her back and she left the kitchen.

Rose was looking for suger when her eyes landed on the fruit basket.

She quickly pulled away from the counter when she saw raspberries, turning around she closed her eyes and took deep breaths to overcome her nausea.

"Charlie..."

She called her and charlie came running towards her.

"What happened?"

She asked worriedly.

"Take this away from me, please..."

Rose said still with closed eyes pointing towards the basket.

Charlie and stella both looked at her confused thinking why she is disgusted by the basket of fruits. Charlie quickly picked it up and took it away from her.

"Are you ok Rose, what happened? They were just some berries I brought for pancakes..."

She asked and Rose shook her head.

"Nothing, please continue your work..."

She said not wanting to tell her the story about her trypophobia and all those things.

Charlie nodded and left not dragging the conversation much.

Stella looked at Rose who was now busy in making the coffee and looked at the basket suspiciously.

She saw the berries and realisation hit her, the glass from her hand slipped and fell on the shiny kitchen floor with scattering noise.

She turned her head towards Rose in lightning speed and clasped her hands on her mouth.

Rose looked at her with a frown and it deepened when she saw her tear filled eyes.

'whats wrong with this woman, why does she always behave like I will eat her alive'

Mumbling She diverted her attention from her trembling form and picked up the mug deciding to ignore her again.

She was about to walk past her but stella quickly held her arm making rose glare at her.

Rose quickly pushed her hand away from her hand like she is some kind of disease. "Don't you dare touch me..."

She spat hatefully at stella making her tears fell down freely.

"How did yo..u... Wh..at..."

Stella's words got stuck in her throat and she couldn't understand what to say.

"What? Huh... Are you asking why am I still Alive... You must be disappointed right?"

Rose said sarcastically slamming her mug on the counter. She was burning inside looking at Stella's face, the face she hates the most.

"No, no... Why are you saying it like that baby... Please listen to me..."

Stella pleaded trying to touch her hands again but Rose didn't let her touch.

"Don't call me that, and why are you doing this drama right now. Listen here you woman you are no one to me so stay away..."

Never in her life has Rose talked to anyone with this much hate but she couldn't control herself from doing it now.

Stella wiped her tears and sniffed.

"Why are you talking like this, I am your mother..."

Rose scoffed at her words making Stella's heart brake but Rose's heart was already broken and was bleeding for years now.

"Don't call yourself my mother, it sounds like a curse from your mouth..."

She replied looking at stella with a disgusting glare.

"Please listen to me once baby, I had no choice at that time. I know you hate me and you should but just listen to me..."

She pleased but all her words fell on deaf ears.

"What do you want to tell me now, that why you abandoned me... How you lied to me and gave me false hopes. How you people used me as nothing but just a...'

"No no it's not what you think..."

Rose's angry words got interrupted by Stella's hurted one.

"I came to look for you but you were gone, I couldn't find you..."

Rose scoffed at her again, mocking her senseless words which was unbelievable for her.

"You couldn't find me, how much difficult would it had been for a reputed and powerful mafia family to find their own daughter. Huh?.... Ohh must be very difficult, you might had no resources, no spies or maybe you had no money to do that... Right Donna."

Rose mocked giving a reality check to stella of how stupid her reason was.

"Call me whatever you want but I love you, I am your mother..."

Stella said sobbing.

"You are no one to me, you died for me the day you abandoned me. And I am not your little innocent daughter anymore, it's your fault I am like this, you destroyed my life and everything. Look at me mother I have become a monster, I kill people. You made me like this and I will hate you forever for this."

Rose's own eyes filled with angry tears but she didn't let them fall, why would she cry for a person who never loved her.

Rose picked up the coffee mug and turned around to leave...

"Bella..."

Stella sobbed but Rose growled.

"I am not your bella, don't call me with that name and one more thing if you tell Damian anything about this then I won't hesitate to slice your throat..."

Stella flinched at her angry voice and was a crying mess by now but Rose didn't felt anything for her own mother, not even a glimpse of regret that her mother was crying in front of her.

She left the kitchen leaving a sobbing stella behind.

****

Rose gave Damian his coffee and excused herself telling that she needs to use the washroom.

She splashed cold water on her face and let her tears fell down freely with the water drops.

"I will never forgive you mother, never..."

She spat hatefully splashing her face with water again..

Flashback...

It was midnight and a young stella was running on the empty dark streets with a little 5 year old girl.

Her breathing was coming into pants and she was glancing behind her again and again to make sure if someone is following them or not.

"Mommy I am tired I don't want to play hide and seek anymore..."

The little girl said gasping for air, her tiny legs gave up after running for miles.

"Just little more baby, we will win after that..."

Stella cooed her but she was scared shitless. Their rivals were following them but how can she tell this to her little daughter that they are on run.

Stella ran few more hours but she finally gave up. It was very hard for her to run with a little girl and a 4 months baby in her womb. She sat down on a bench by the side of an empty road and caressed her stomach while tears rolled down from her cheeks.

"What happened mommy is our baby boy hungry ?..."

She sat beside her mother and asked in her baby voice.

Stella looked at her and then again at her little baby bump. She knew that she can't run for long, they will catch her soon and if they catch her they will kill both of them along with her unborn child. With a very heavy heart she made a decision which the mother inside her was not ready to accept but she had to do it.

She chose her and her unborn son over her little 5 year old daughter who was looking at her with concerned eyes thinking that her mother is hurt.

"Yes baby, he is hungry... I need to feed him. Can you please wait here, I will go and feed him quickly..."

Stella said caressing her face.

"Okay mommy..."

She replied like a good girl.

"You are such a good girl, I will be back in no time ok. Don't go anywhere..."

Stella hugged her tightly and kissed her forehead with tears still running down from her eyes.

'i am sorry baby but I have to leave you here otherwise they will kill us all, forgive me... Mommy loves you...'

She said to herself and looked at her daughter who was looking at her with her innocent grey eyes.

"Keep this dagger with you, you know how to use it right..."

Stella handed her a little dagger and she nodded.

"Yes I know, daddy taught me..."

"Good baby, please take care of yourself..."

Stella kissed her on her whole face...

"Please come fast..."

She said making Stella's heart heavy with guilt but still she turned on her heals and ran away from there, leaving her 5 year old little daughter alone on a dark empty road.

She sat on the bench under the streetlight alone. She waited the whole night but her mother didn't came. The sun started rising up and her stomach started growling in hunger, she saw one hawker selling hotdogs and walked towards him.

She asked for food but she had no money so he kicked her away from his stall, she sat down beside the road crying for her mother but no one came for her help.

"Hey, don't cry... You can eat this, I can share it with you..."

Her eyes sparkled looking at the hotdog, she looked at the little boy standing in front of her with a cheeky smile.

She shook her head negatively...

"No mommy said not to take anything from strangers..."

She replied but her hungry stomach growled in protest.

That little boy pouted but didn't gave up.

He held his hand in front of her for handshake...

"Hii I am Jackson but you can call me Jackie..."

She looked at him hesitantly and shook her hand with him...

"Hii I am bella I mean Arie, you can call me Arie..."

"Ok so we are not strangers anymore, come on let's eat..."

He gave her his half hotdog and they both ate...

"Where is your mother Jackie ?"

She asked and he shrugged.

"I don't know, where is yours..."

He asked wiping his runny nose with the back of his hand.

She looked at the road where stella ran last night and Said innocently with hope filled eyes...

"She is coming..."‒‒‒‒‒‒‒‒‒‒‒‒‒‒‒‒

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