Chapter

-Emilina POV- 

“I, Lucias Rutherford reject to accept Emilina Winter as my fated mate.” 

“I don’t want you Emilina. Just think everything we had in the past is just an 

illusion.” 

“Don’t ever let me see your face again. I f**king hate you” 

“I never loved you!” 

My eyes snapped open, I sat up on the bed swiftly, clutching the bedsheet tightly. I’m sweating. My heart hammered inside of my chest with the burning pain which I would never be able to forget. It didn’t take much time for me to realize that it was still midnight. 

I glanced out of the window of my room to see the heavy rain outside. It’s been raining rapidly for a few days already. While I stared at the rain, my mind pulled me to the nightmare I just saw. I felt my eyes filling with tears. Then those tears. sl*pped out of my eyes. As always, I’m crying… I’m crying my heart out once again. 

It’s been three years. Three years have passed and I’m still seeing him in my dreams. I still can’t forget him although I knew he had completely forgotten about me and moved on with his life as if I was never there beside him but why is it so hard for me? Why is it so painful? I think I still can’t force my heart to reduce the love I have for him. I just can’t undo the love which was dangerously deep and unbreakable. He’s the man who let me go through the most painful thing in this world along with the most ruthless humiliation. 

Isn’t it funny to get rejected by your mate the day after your wedding? The very first morning I woke up in his bed, I was heatlessly rejected before I could even think about what was happening. That scar still remains in my heart and still haunts me every night in my dreams. Never have I thought he would do something like that to me. Wasn’t he happy when I walked through the aisle to him? He looked happy and he was happy… I felt it… but… 

A loud thunder roared outside pulling me from my thoughts, which I was glad for. I covered my face with my palms shaking my head. It hurts… it is just suffocating whenever I recall him. I wiped off my tears and gazed at the figure sleeping soundly next to me. The hair… the face and the eyes… every single feature of this little guy resembled Lucias. This is the main reason why I cannot forget about Lucias. 

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How can I ever forget or ignore when his son is here? I laid on the bed again facing my son who’s sleeping so soundly. There was a mixture of both happiness and sadness in my heart when I looked at this little handsome face. I’m happy that I gave birth to him and at the same time, It stabbed my heart to face the reality that my son will never have his father. I stroked his silky black hair without moving my eyes from him. 

Three years…. so many things happened and I’m still here after waking up from the same nightmare I see every night and looking at my sleeping son while my whole soul questioned him why his father rejected me out of the blue. 

my 

Enduring the heart tearing pain in me, I shut my eyes wanting to fall asleep again. I don’t want to wake up every night seeing the man who hurt me the most in dreams. I’m so exhausted from suffering for three years. I spent almost eight months carrying his son and that period was painful. 

How can it not be painful when I was carrying the child of the most powerful alpha blood? Most importantly, when the child’s gender is male? None of those things were easy for me. He just completely destroyed my life. Whatever his reason is, I don’t think I will ever bring myself to forgive him even though I still love him insanely. 

‘Sleep now… just sleep. Thinking about him would give you nothing but pain and at sleepless night. 

My wolf’s voice was broken when she muttered. I hear her voice in my head. Not only me, but also she’s suffering from what happened to us. She never thought her mate would do that to her, so am I. I wiped my tears and forced myself to sleep without thinking more. Thinking about him won’t help me. But I want to meet him one day… 

I want to meet him one day before I die and ask him the reason. I want to know why he rejected me. He never stated a reason for it. He just said that he doesn’t love me, which was so hard for me to believe. He loved me… I believe that he loved. 

  1. me. 

‘Stop… Stop it Emilina… just sleep! Thinking about him and questioning yourself why he did it doesn’t change anything. He rejected us because he didn’t want us. He just used us for one night and threw us away. All he wanted was to sleep with you for one night and he got what he wanted‘ My wolf hissed at me. 

I would be lying if I said her words didn’t pierce my chest. Did… he really? Did he only want to sleep with me? I sighed and hugged my little boy against my chest deciding to sleep. 

“Emily… are you going with me tonight for Alpha Kendrick’s daughter’s wedding?” 

I looked at Jerral who poked his head into my room with a smile. In his arms, there is my little boy, Luan. I stopped reading the book and walked out of the room taking Luan from Jerral. However, Luan still nagged into Jerral’s n*eck without coming to me. I sighed. Luan really likes spending time with Jerral. 

“I will come. Are we taking him too?” I asked. 

Jerral looked at Luan for a moment and then his attention completely fell on me. I 

that his answer is a ‘no. Of course it will be hard if we take Luan because the wedding is happening at night and Luan has to sleep early. He can’t stay awake. 

can say 

“Can we let my mom take care of him until we come home?” 

Of course… His mom is the only option we have. I agreed with him. One night only for a few hours, Luan won’t be upset without me. I kept refusing to go to any events with Jerral but I can’t do it anymore because I’ve let him down enough. I respect this man a lot and I just simply help him with every achievement in his life. because he’s the only one who helped me when I had no one. 

“Okay, I’m going out for a while now. I will ask Mrs. Magret to send your dress soon. I will come to pick you up at five okay?” With that, Jerral left the house. 

It’s still morning and I still have time for everything. First, I fed Luan and then let him play with his toys for a while. I just watched him while he was giggling at his dinosaur toys. His actions, his little smiles and every thing he does made my heart filled with love and affection. I just love this little boy but the love in me hurts. I took a deep breath and shook my head before my thoughts could run back to Lucias. I just don’t want to think about him. I should just hate him for doing this to me but still, I am not that strong enough to hate the only man I’ve ever loved. 

“Mama…” 

My thoughts flew away when I heard my little boy calling me. I smiled as I stepped near him and sat on the floor next to him. The moment I sat next to him, he looked up at me. As soon as I saw his face my heart tightened and my heart almost stopped beating. A reflective shudder ran down through my spine as my heart began to shiver. I cupped his little face staring right into his eyes. His eyes were blue but now his eyes had just turned red which horrified me. 

What did I expect? What did I expect after giving birth to Lucias’s child? Like father, like son… The powers Lucias hold will also be in Luan. He’s still two years 

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old and his eyes turned red for the first time and that means Lucias can feel his scent. Lucias can feel Luan. I felt like I’m going crazy. I don’t want him to find us. I don’t want Lucias to know that I gave birth to his son and I got pregnant after sleeping with him for just one night. I may still love him but I don’t want to go to him again. I don’t want to be with him or let him take Luan away from me. 

After almost five minutes, my son’s eyes turned back to the same sapphire eyes which he inherited from his father. I sighed. What am I going to do now? I knew giving birth to this child would be such a risk. I knew this would be dangerous and if Lucias got to know he would just kill me on the spot for having his child even after he rejected me. It’s okay… it’s okay… calm down. You got this… nothing will happen and he will never find us. I’m living so far away from him. He cannot even think about reaching me. 

For three years… I lived in fear thinking he would find me but still he didn’t. I can only think that he wasn’t looking for me. Of course, I’m nothing to him and he won’t even bother to think about me. He will never find me. Although he finds me, I’m still not ready to face him. Just as I said before, I will go to meet him one day but I will do it after Luan grows up to be a young man. I will not find Lucias when my son is still small… 

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