My Professor Is My Alpha Mate
#Chapter 184 Confessions

Lila's POV

"Someday soon, Enzo will realize what a terrible mistake he’s made,” Felicity said, rolling her eyes at me.

“And I suppose you think that you're more suitable to be the Luna?” I asked, straightening my shoulders.

“Obviously,” she scoffed. “Like I said, I know this pack very well. I know Enzo very well. I know what he likes and what he doesn't like. You are a dangerous nobody who will get everybody killed eventually. You shouldn't be around people.”

“If Enzo truly felt that way then he would have rejected me long ago without a second thought. But he hasn't. In fact...” I moved my hair away from my neck. Her eyes faltered on my mark and her sly grin fell. “He trusted me enough to mark me. I guess that means he trusts me enough to help him run his pack.”

She was silent; her eyes never leaving my mark.

I wasn't going to entertain this conversation any longer. I stepped around her and began walking back in the direction of Diana's room. I felt a cold chill wrap around my body, making me shiver. More than anything, I just wanted to be tucked away into Enzo’s arms and feel his warmth.

I knew that Felicity was just talking out of her ass; I know that Enzo loves me. But she still had a little truth in her words. I haven't learned everything about my abilities yet and they are still unpredictable. Until I can learn how to control them fully and find out the extent of what I can do, I will always be a danger to anyone I encounter.

How could I help run Enzo’s pack? How could I expect his pack to trust me, when I barely trust me? The thought caused an ache in my chest, and I paused just outside the door, unable to enter. I placed my hand on my chest, feeling my rapid heartbeat and trying everything I could to settle it down.

Her words shouldn't have affected me like this; I need to learn to brush this kind of attack off my back. It's going to be unavoidable, and I already knew this. Enzo was so handsome that it would be foolish to think that others wouldn't want him as well.

I wondered what his relationship with Felicity was before I came into the picture. She, and another girl, said hi to him when we were headed toward the dining room for breakfast the morning after he marked me. He didn't seem super interested in her though; he said hi in return and moved on. There wasn't anything unusual about the encounter; except for the fact that she couldn't stop glaring at me.

I took in a deep breath and reached for the door handle. It would only be a matter of time before To my surprise, she chuckled.

“That sounds like my Enzo,” she said, shaking her head, but then wincing in pain at the motion.

It broke my heart.

“Don’t move too much,” I said, sitting down in the chair Enzo was sitting in

“I'm old. That would have hurt even if this didn't happen to me,” she said with a light laugh, making me smile. “But I'm glad I can talk to you alone for a few minutes. I'm honestly surprised he brought you to see me."

"Enzo loves you very much,” I tell her simply.

“I love him very much as well,” Diana smiled. “You are quite beautiful; I can see the attraction he has for you.”

I blushed at her words; I couldn't keep the grin off my face. But then Felecity’s words came back to haunt me, and I suddenly felt very small.

"What is it?” She asked, staring around my face curiously. “Are you okay?”

“I'm okay,” I said, forcing a smile.

She kept that frown on her face though.

“Is it what that girl said to you?”

I stared at her in shock.

"How did you know?" I asked, staring at her intently.

She pointed to her ear.

“I have strong hearing. My wolf might be old, but shes still strong,” Diana said with a faint smile, but then she frowned again as she searched my face.

“I know that Enzo loves me and that he doesn't want her. She just wants to be a Luna; she doesn't care about Enzo or the pack,” I said, staring down at my hands.

“If you already know that, then why are you sad?”

I thought about it for a moment longer and then sighed.

“Because part of what she said was right. I am dangerous and I could get the pack killed If I'm not careful. I don't know if Enzo told you a lot about me, but I'm a Volana wolf. I don't have a lot of experience with my abilities and I'm not fully trained. I could lose control and hurt someone. I don’t trust me... I can't expect Enzo’s pack to trust me...”

I wasn't sure what compelled me to tell her all of this, but it felt good to talk to someone. She stared at me with such love and compassion in her eyes that it caused my heart to swell.

“Enzo deserves better than me... It's no wonder he hated me at first.”

“I don’t think I know what you mean,” Diana said, arching an eyebrow. “Hated you?”

I nodded and met her eyes; this time, I couldn't hide the tears threatening to escape.

"He hated me for a while in the beginning because I'm a Volana. He didn’t trust me...”

She stared at me for a moment longer and then she let out a breath I didn't know she was holding “Lila... I think there's something you need to know.”

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